paellamagi

The same morning ritual. Coffee. Make bed. Coffee. Check email. Coffee. Escitalopram, ten milligrams. Lamotrigine, fifty milligrams. Sodium valproate, one thousand milligrams. Toast, multigrain bread, peanut butter. Repeat every day.

Wake up, its morning I know, the sky's still black You're all alone, and so cold Feel like you're gonna crack The days are so short The nights alone so long You try so hard to act normal But everything feels so wrong You can't feel the winter's sun You can't feel the winter's sun You long to feel the winter's sun But its so far away, its too far away Wake up, its morning I know, the skys still black You' re all alone, and so cold Feel like you're gonna crack

The streetlights hide the moonlight But you are still awake Those secrets you hide away Crawling inside your brain I saw that dream as well And now i stay awake I wish I was like you So numb to all the pain Now I don't feel anything But yet i feel too much I see those arms around me But i do not feel the touch

 If only, I could cut out your tongue If only I could forget the things you said I could love you until the end of time If only When I met you, long ago You were the sweetest thing that I ever ever saw If you stay nice and quiet i could love you forever more I would kill for you honey, And I'd help you hide the body Because that's what true love is for Don't say a word, I don't mind As long as I can have you with me You never loved me, I know, cause you never even said All I want is to hear your sweet voice still in my head

You seek heartache like a moth to a flame You seek sorrow like you've never felt pain Like you've never been hurt by the one that you love But you'll never ever forget again You feel broken, like the waves in the bay So much sadness, like the world has gone grey Like you can change how it all went wrong And you'll learn to love again some day I wish I could ease your sorrow I wish that I could heal your pain All I can do is send my love You're two planes and an ocean away They say just to cheer up like they don't even know They say that it could be worse like they've never been there They say just go outside and the world will be brighter